I am SO grumpy. And I totally know why. I haven’t worked out in like two weeks because I’m still getting used to my new schedule and I haven’t had the motivation to get up early. How does that make sense right? I’m a motivation BLOG shouldn’t I AT LEAST BE ABLE TO GET UP??? Ugh bleh, and “ugh bleh” is exactly how it makes me feel!
Lesson learned. (I should know better)
The WORST part is that I’m hungrier when I stop working out than when I am working out. Crazy how that works. Although, I do think I kind of sent my body into starvation mode when I was crazy stressed and working out. I’m happier with my eating now but I would like to be eating less sugar (Orange Leaf Frozen yogurt is SO good though!)
So tomorrow, I’m going to have a plan, a goal, a mission. I am going to have breakfast with Jon, go to my 9:30 meeting, workout at the SERF, study in my cubicle, then go to my 2:30 class, THEN go to swim practice, and head home, eat and go to bed. Sounds good, right??
I think I’m going to take a break from looking at fitspo/fitness/healthy/motivation and tumblr in general for awhile.
I’m really stressed out and all the 16 year olds claiming to be “healthy” are really pissing me off (if you’re 16 and actually healthy, I’m sorry if I offended you). I’m becoming unreasonably upset at them, I guess I just see it as a snowball. What if someone ACTUALLY believes this pro-ED BS you are preaching. I know I can’t battle them, there’s no point in trying to talk sense into them so I just come up angry because they’re throwing their lives away and possibly endangering the lives of others.
Another obnoxious note is all the “get fit quick” schemes and tips. OH THE TIPS. THE TIPS! They piss me off too. My favorite is the, “If your stomach is cold while you’re working out, you’re burning fat.” I’m sorry, it doesn’t work like that. What a simplified version of what our complex, beautiful bodies do. You don’t work out to burn fat. UGGGHHHH
I’m going to let my queue run out, it’ll take a couple of days. And see what sort of mental state I’m in when I come back.
First of all, thanks for all the advice :), I really appreciate it!
So I decided on a course of action. When I woke up, my roommate was still sleeping and I was left a passive agressive note about my noise in the morning. Since she was still sleeping and I wanted to start my day, I simply erased it and wrote, “This is a dialogue that we should have.” I started my day by going for a run to decompress and when I came back, there was another note saying in big bold letters, “So bring it up.”
That really lit my fire, I was hot, sticky, and tired and it was only 9 am. She had left for class and I immediately texted her,
“You’re the one with the problem and leaving passive aggressive notes. Shut your door or get ear plugs. I won’t grind coffee but I’m going to make smoothies. I deal with you waking me up whenever you get home. You can do the same.”
Eh. It was early, I was grumpy. She responded, “I’d like to talk tonight if you have time. Or tomorrow afternoon if that works better.” Why couldn’t she have said this in the morning instead of leaving the note.
I responded with what time worked best and when that time came around, she didn’t show up and our cat was gone. She was more than 30 minutes late and continued to get ready to go out while we were “talking”. Essentially, she apologized and we reached the compromise I suggested about not making coffee. I feel as though this is going to bite her in the butt because in 3 days I’m done with early mornings but she nannies all summer starting at 7 AM, and she’s probably going to want coffee.
But the kicker is the cat, I’ve posted pictures with Gatsby before, and Gatsby and I spend a lot of time together because I do most of my homework from home. This was a really low blow. When I asked about him, she said he was gone to her parents house indefinitely because he causes problems between us. I think it’s essentially that she doesn’t want to do the litterbox. I cried a little last night over it, I know it’s stupid but I really liked that cat, I would have been willing to take care of him if she would have asked.
Week 2 of my blog changes, they seem to be going well. Tuesday is my personal post and open question session. I did quite a personal post/rant last night about the state of my apartment and how messy it is. I ended up cleaning and biking to my boyfriends after eating deep fried cheese curds. I did however have to bike 12 miles to get them (6 there, 6 back) so I don’t feel SO bad.
I feel better today, I haven’t been home and I’m going to be at the library most of the day. I have a thesis presentation tomorrow and a meeting with my thesis advisor today that I’m preparing for. Eeeek, I’m almost graduated!
Anyways, part of my personal post is where I open my ask box to anyone with any sort of questions, I’m game for anything today. Fitness, personal, weird, quirky. Bring ‘em on!
I hate the dreadmill. I really do. I love running outside but by the time I was finished with class today it was dark and kinda stormy out which freaks me out since most of my neighborhood doesn’t have street lamps.
Anyways, I’m at my school gym getting ready for a 5k on the dreadmill because I ate 4 pieces of hot n ready pizza last night at swim practice. I did a mile warm up under 5 mph and then upped it to 6 for the second mile and 7 for the third while varying the incline.
But this female gets on next to me and puts her treadmill to 7.5 without a warm up. Fine, whatever, maybe you’re a stellar athlete or already warmed up. But then she proceeded to get off the belt every 3 mins or so and take a 30 second rest or so. It was extremely distracting to my workout and I can’t imagine it was doing much for her. I just don’t get it.
Maybe I’m bitter because she was talk and lean and could have been a thinspo model but I’m stronger and I last longer.
It really bothers me when people thank god or pray to god for their hard work and strength. I’m sorry, god didn’t force you to eat at Burger King for years just like he didn’t force you to go to the gym. Give yourself a little credit for the changes that you made in your life with your willpower, you made the decision to get out of bed and make yourself better not god. If you’re offended by this please feel free to unfollow me.
Oh my gosh I’m busy, this is going to be rough to keep up during the FINAL SEMESTER OF MY COLLEGE CAREER!!!! Anyways, it’s Wednesday. I’ve eaten decent for the week, I went climbing yesterday and did sets of pushups, planks and oil riggers. I’m going to try to climb again today. I have a headache and an INSANE amount of homework. I have 4 hours before my next class and am going to read a chapter in my adolescent lit book and take by ass to the school gym.
I have a list of reasons why I hate the school gym.
1. Baseball players - All the players here seem to be self absorbed assholes, butt slapping and chest bumping in the gym, just what I want to see when I’m concentrating on my form.
2. Squat Racks - Any time I want to squat the bar is insanely high and loaded with weights that are too heavy for me to lift off the bar, on my tiptoes, above my head.
3. Cardio Queens - there is such a stereo type that females can only do cardio, so much that there are never any machines open. I don’t even like the dreadmill but it’s a nice warm up. And I get stared at for even touching a free weight.
Okay, no more excuses.
Here’s what I’ve eaten today,
Oatmeal with blueberries and skim milk
Yogi Detox tea
1 serving (I counted) of parmesean and basil wheat thins
1 serving of prunes (5= 100 calories)
1 serving of dried apricots
I have with me almonds, cashews, and pistachios an orange and a half of a cucumber and some baby carrots.
This should hold me over until I get home to climb!!!
I’m also doing hot yoga tomorrow with my friend Anna. :)
How are you doing today?